this is. my broken. childhood

Conversations....
...written on 2004-12-28, @ 11:21 p.m.

I'm driving myself insane and eating way too much for my own good. I don't feel like trying to explain how I feel so you can just see the conversation I ranted to Anna.
Kas... says:
i just need someone to talk and talk and talk and keep me preoccupied
specks... says:
haha
Kas... says:
yeah
specks... says:
i thought something had happened
Kas... says:
only in my head
specks... says:
haha
Kas... says:
i argue with myself
Kas... says:
its so annoying
specks... says:
you have some major problems
Kas... says:
tell me about it
specks... says:
lol
Kas... says:
am i insane for still liking him
specks... says:
yea a bit
Kas... says:
why cant i get over him
Kas... says:
i miss him
Kas... says:
does he hate me
Kas... says:
i need to call him
specks... says:
i don't know your crazy
specks... says:
no
specks... says:
did you call him?
Kas... says:
im scared to call him
Kas... says:
im going to call thursday i guess
specks... says:
okay
specks... says:
that would be nice
Kas... says:
i just will not leave a message if he isnt home
Kas... says:
i hate leaving messages
Kas... says:
its worse than answering machines
specks... says:
then don't
Kas... says:
im not
Kas... says:
maybe i will have some esp and he will know it was me
Kas... says:
yeah right
Kas... says:
he prolly doesnt even think about me anymore
Kas... says:
unless i show up and get in his way
Kas... says:
omg
specks... says:
shut up (I am not quite sure why Anna told me to shut up there...hmmm)
Kas... says:
i need poptarts or a breakfast food of some kind
Kas... says:
like hashbrowns
Kas... says:
yum
specks... says:
i ahve poptarts
Kas... says:
or orange juice
Kas... says:
or cereal
specks... says:
i have those too
Kas... says:
like FRUIT LOOPS!
specks: *draws odd shaped fruit loops*
Kas... says:
i wanted ceral when i woke up this morning ang all we had was some honey covered stuff or the crumbs with raisins in it or fruity pebbles
Kas... says:
i chose crumbs and raisins which was raisin bran in its previous life
specks... says:
haha
Kas... says:
i hate updating so much
specks... says:
me too
Kas... says:
but if i dont i end up explaining everything in a really boring entry
specks... says:
lol
Kas... says:
yeah so when i want to write i avouid it so i dont have a boring entry and it keeps piling and piling
Kas... says:
and then i forget
Kas... says:
woooo
specks... says:
lol
Kas... says:
you know what i hate about guys that cant decide who they want
specks... says:
i agree
specks... says:
like scott
Kas... says:
which is really stupid because if you like someone you should like them and only them
specks... says:
i agree
Kas... says:
i dont understand how ppl can go but i cant decide which one i like better *coughbrookecoughscottcoughbarniecough* wow that was more like a choke
specks... says:
hahaha
specks... says:
my nose is cold
Kas... says:
lol
specks... says:
i'm having snogging withdrawl
Kas... says:
me too!

Now for some conversation with Kayla!:
Kas... says:
kales name annoys me
Kas... says:
he should leave bush alone
Kas... says:
we dont talk about kerry all the time
Kayla says:
YES!
Kayla says:
i know
Kayla says:
lets make our names something mean about kerry
Kayla says:
just for fun
Kayla says:
or maybe not.
Kayla says:
but we'll think of something.
Kas... says:
lol
Kas... says:
we have to do something
Kas... says:
joejoe
Kas... says:
ahh
Kas... says:
i knew it
Kas... says:
i tried to tell him
Kayla says:
hahaha
Kas... says:
nice but naive man
Kayla says:
yes true
Kayla says:
are they broke up?
Kas... says:
not that i know of
Kayla says:
okay
Kayla says:
good deal
Kas... says:
there is a hole in my wall...
Kayla says:
hahahaaaa
Kayla says:
why
Kas... says:
well i am getting a pocket door in my bathroom and hey we got another new light switcher thing that this time ppl can figure out
Kayla says:
ohhhhhhhhhh
Kayla says:
i seeee
Kayla says:
good
Kayla says:
cause i dont understand it
Kayla says:
hahaha
Kas... says:
lol
Kas... says:
well this one there is a little switch thing and there is a leverish thing that you can push up and down to dim it
Kas... says:
how awesome is it that i have a dimmer in my bathroom!
Kas... says:
i love it
Kayla says:
YAAAAAY!!!!
Kayla says:
prettyful
Kayla says:
i want a dimmer
Kayla says:
somewhere.
Kas... says:
where is everyone
Kayla says:
i dont know
Kayla says:
i've been wondering that for the last week
Kayla says:
i think i'm high or something
Kayla says:
on sharpie!!!!
Kayla says:
YES!
Kayla says:
from last night
Kayla says:
!!!!!
Kayla says:
i drew with sharpies
Kas... says:
thats not high...
Kas... says:
im not sure what it is
Kas... says:
but everyone tells me thats not high
Kayla says:
oh.
Kas... says:
its like high but not
Kas... says:
and i tried out my under armor today!
Kayla says:
hahah
Kayla says:
under armor?
Kas... says:
you know the tightslike things runners or football players wear in the cold?
Kayla says:
ohhh yeah
Kas... says:
they keep you toasty
Kayla says:
haha
Kas... says:
i look sexy let me tell ya lol
Kayla says:
lol
Kas... says:
i realized why some girls like older guys and some girls like younger guys!
Kas... says:
or well my theory on it
Kayla says:
tell me!
Kas... says:
about what
Kayla says:
what is your theory about older guys liking younger girls
Kas... says:
no it was a theory about why some girls like older guys and some like younger guys
Kas... says:
but anyway
Kayla says:
now tell me the theory
Kayla says:
i've been wondering too
Kas... says:
some girls go for older guys because they dont want to feel like they are babysitting or are afraid they will end up with someone who is immature like my mom wouldnt datye a younger guy cuz she felt like it would be dating her younger brother or one of his annoying friends and some just have a feeling of protection when they are with an older guy
Kayla says:
omp.
Kayla says:
makes sense.
Kas... says:
and some girls like younger guys because they feel more in control and like to make the plans and decisions and feel like they are more able to do that with a younger guy and maybe they want someone they can take care of. someone once told me once that some younger guys are a lot more respectful and pay more attention to women that are older than them
Kas... says:
too bad it didnt make me want to date a younger guy
Kayla says:
hahaha
Kas... says:
i like it when they are older and taller and stronger than me
Kayla says:
i dunno what i like
Kayla says:
but i seem to be attracted to short guys
Kas... says:
lol
Kayla says:
the prince movie
Kayla says:
purple rain
Kayla says:
is on
Kas... says:
lol
Kayla says:
woot
Kayla says:
what bad acting
Kayla says:
hahaha
Kas... says:
lol
Kayla says:
but prince is cool
Kayla says:
i saw his bare bum on a tv show late last night
Kayla says:
i was scarred
Kayla says:
MUAHAHA
Kayla says:
I LOVE THIS PART
Kayla says:
he talks from a puppet

Conversations with Annie (her screen name cracks me up):

Kas... says:
have you decided his hair color yet
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
ummm
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
blondes are exciting
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
but not for me
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
im think my hair color
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
i dc
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
ill take a nice sweet one with any
Kas... says:
lol
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
ya
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
who u got
Kas... says:
welll i dont have him but i wish i did
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
who
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
oh whtas his
***censored***
Kas says:
so who are you wishing for
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
anybody
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
with a six pac
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
lol
Kas... says:
lol
***censored***
Kas... says:
nice picture! yooow
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
lol
Annie~I FEEL THE NEED THE NEED FOR SPEED says:
i know
Kas... says:
hehe
Kas... says:
can anyone say desperate
Kas... says:
lol just kidding
Annie~ANY GUY THAT HAS ALOT OF FRIENDS PLZ TALK TO ME RIGHT NOW says:
shut up
Kas... says:
would you date a guy in our school?
Annie~ says:
depends
Annie~ says:
who
Annie~ says:
he would have to be really hott
Annie~ says:
y
Kas... says:
well then nevermind
Annie~ says:
weait
Annie~ says:
hold up
Annie~ says:
wait a min
Annie~ says:
i was joking
Annie~ says:
he would have to be nice
***CENSORED FOR A LONG TIME***
If you read all that you must think I am insane and be really annoyed that you spent that much time reading that.

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